It seems like an obvious realization but it really never hit me until I started reading this book (South of the Border, West of the Sun by Haruki Murakami) for my English class. The main character is an only child as well so he talks about a lot of loneliness. Anyhow, as an only child you’re taught to entertain yourself because that’s usually your only choice. After 20 years, I’ve gotten pretty used to that concept. I’m not saying I love being alone all the time, but I don’t mind it. I think this is why I’ve yet to “come out of my shell” in college. Maybe because I’m not really even in a shell, I’m just being my usual only child self. I’m used to keeping myself occupied so I don’t always feel the need to try and make friends every where I go. Silence is more normal than awkward to me. I think it’s time I stop worrying myself about trying to be more outgoing. I am outgoing when I want to be. And I keep to myself when I want to as well. There shouldn’t be a problem with that.

I’ve had my nose pierced for about a year & a half now and I’d like to take it out. Some days I like it, some days I hate it. But the real reason I want to get rid of it is because I feel like if I wait any longer, the hole will never close up. And I don’t wanna get stuck with an open hole/scar on my nose. Nor do I want to be the Grandma with a nose ring.

So, I don’t know if any of my followers know anything about piercings (nose specifically) but if you do, What are the chances of my piercing closing up?

Guesses? Actual knowledge? Something?

:|

Yesterday I was interning as usual and got an e-mail from one of the girls I usually help at the office. I figured it was another task for me but surprisingly she was asking me how much longer I’d be interning at the office, what year I am and what I want to do after school. I was really shocked because it was the first time that I felt like an actual person (in that office at least) rather than the kid everyone forces to do their tedious work. She was genuinely interested. I told her that I’d like to be a music journalist and she said she would try to hook me up with people she knows. She said if I ever need a letter of recommendation, tomorrow or two years from now, she’d be glad to do it for me because I’m a cool chick and a hard worker that deserves a chance.

I’m not sure if I’m more shocked that she offered to help me before I even had to ask or that I actually made a great impression. Probably the latter, I always feel like I make terrible impressions for whatever reason. Knowing that someone believes me and is willing to help me achieve my goals is an amazing feeling. Especially someone I barely even know. I couldn’t be more grateful.

I signed up for this internship because I figure it would be a good “learning experience” like they suggested. You know what I’ve learned so far? That I hate being an intern. Cool lesson right. Yeah. As much as I dislike working for one meaningless class credit, learning useful skills & networking is a good thing. But that’s not always the case. Some days, like today, these people have me running around doing basic ass errands that they’re really just too lazy to go do themselves. But no just “hey, can you go downstairs & grab a couple waters” but like “hey can you go across town & go pick up this package? You know you’re way around right? Great, bye!” Usually when I’m told to jump, I say no. Now since I’m an intern, I have to swallow my pride & ask ‘how high?’ - I’m just really looking forward to this being over because I have too much pride for this shit & I can only hold my tongue for so long.

Oh, they told me at orientation not to talk about my internship on social networking sites. This is my 235172nd time talking about it.

Oops!

So today was the 5th annual Restoration Rocks music festival in Brooklyn today and I must say, it was a pretty good experience. Seeing Mos Def perform is always great. But seeing him perform with an orchestra was definitely interesting. The entire arrangement was done very well. Only problem: Mos Def was too far back on the stage lol Oh and 4 songs wasn’t nearly enough. At all. The majority of the people came to see Mos or Talib Kweli. Mos only did 4 songs & Kweli didn’t attend because him & the promoters had a disagreement. So those of us who actually stayed for the whole show just remained there out of curiosity. There a few local Brooklyn acts. Some dope. Some… nope. Pharoahe Monch was second to last. One of his back up singers was up there singing like the long lost member of Jodeci. He took over the show lmao. The since Talib Kweli didn’t show, Joell Ortiz was the special guest. Why? I don’t know. But why not? (Sidenote: Everybody in Slaughterhouse has the same beard). I yelled at a few photographers as usual for being too tall. Saw some people I follow on here in real life, which is always odd. And just kicked it with some cool ass people in the crowd for a few hours. Brooklyn + music = a good time, every time. 

One last thing, Mos Def is doing another FREE show with the Brooklyn Philharmonic this week. Here’s the info if you’re interested:

WNYC NEW SOUNDS LIVE PRESENTS THE BROOKLYN PHIL
Wednesday, October 12, 7:00 pm
WNYC New Sounds Live at the World Financial Center
Between 225 Liberty Street and 220 Vesey Street

Hopefully you’ll see me there there :)